08/01/2021
Today I was asked about ideas for my senior capstone project. To be quite honest I have no clue what I want to do. A lot of my friends are getting started with their pitches and everything and I have nothing yet. I just know I want it to involve nursing since that's what I want to major in. Right now social wise school is pretty good. I'm very excited for what senior year is going to entail for me. Other than that there is really nothing else to write about so far.
My March in a Nutshell was pretty full of different things. First I volunteered for the Roberto Clemente Committee event which was super fun. The girls on the committee organized such a beautiful and lively event. It was definitely one of my favorite things I did this month. I also released my first teaser! My classmate Charis and I worked really hard on it and released it on the school's YouTube channel. Charis brings my ideas to life, our teamwork is truly something to see. This month I was also super busy with getting in interviews, planning out an agenda and a storyboard. March was a very and probably one of the most productive months I've had for my capstone yet. Also this Month I got to work with Ashley on the music for my video's final product and when she showed me the first draft it just made me even more excited to get this project done. I have a full schedule for April into May and I plan to get this video done by the first round of the exhibition or at least be in the final stages and putting the finishing touches on it. I plan on getting more field work hours during the month of April and May while editing. The least stressing thing about this project is knowing that my field hours are getting done while I’m working on it but I still do wanna participate in things that give back to the community. On top of that it’s more than just capstone in my life getting done. During spring break I went on a trip to DR that has come to inspire me on music I could use for my capstone project; that and I had a lot of fun. I also thought adding a little “homemade video” feel to it would bring a type of wholesomeness to it that you couldn’t get any other way. This video is going to have our hearts and souls poured into it and I can’t wait to share the final product with my classmates. I’ve been a whole lot less stressed and ready to work. This month mentally I've been in a great place really and I think that seeing people enjoy the teaser is what really made it feel worth it. I feel good and that's all I can say. I am more motivated than ever to get this project done and push it out.
February 3, 2022:
I turned 18 today! I’m also quarantined from school since my whole family has COVID except for me and my sister. Other than that we recently just missed school due to the middle school incident as well which is pretty sad. Personally this didn’t affect me much other than my thoughts of graduation being pushed back. My family also surprised me with a birthday cake :)
February 8, 2022:
I came back to school yesterday and already I feel WAY overwhelmed. I waited until late to do my Journals for my first block class so now I have to recount the months from memory. On top of this I have done my work over quarantine but I’m more than lost in my classes. I already feel like this quarter is not gonna go my way. I just barely got by during the first semester but at least I passed is what I keep telling myself. Is this enough for me? Yes. For now. Do I want to be better? Of course I do. I'm just so overwhelmed and already mentally tired from the stress.
February 14, 2022:
Coming to school on Valentines day has to be the worst thing known to mankind. I may just be a bit of a hater though. Anyways at the moment there is so much on my mind, positive and negative. For one thing my grades are starting to drop because of all my missing assignments already. For two I may have the case of senioritis. High school has always felt unnecessary to me and just in the way of me and what I really want to do with my life. It’s such a pain to feel this way. I want to enjoy the experience but I just can’t. It feels too tedious, too in the way and I’m not motivated to do any of the work given to me. I’m burning out even quicker.
February 16, 2022:
Wednesdays are always my favorite because they’re shorter. It’s nice to leave early and go home. You know ever since I came to this school I’ve never been the same. I used to be a straight A honor and AP student. It gets me thinking about what happened to me. Yes, I should probably strive to be better but I can’t. Mentally, I cannot. I cannot try to be better because mentally I’m not here. Mentally I’m not ready. I catch myself wishing I could go back sometimes. Go back to freshman year, start over again, make new choices and never come to this school. This school has destroyed my ego as a student. I’m capable of so much more yet, here I am. Stuck, lost, and defeated.
February 18, 2022:
It’s the Friday before break. I’ve never felt so relieved. I will not write in my journal over break since well it’s a break and as I do kind of use the journal as an outlet as per my last two entries. I still think this journal is tedious though, outlet or not. I never have anything to write about and this past month has had a lot of negative entries. I’m trying my best to distract myself with the positives like prom, graduating, spring break, the senior trip and socializing with my classmates. It only works for a period of time though but at this point I’m just rambling to fill up this page. If I can say blah blah blah over and over again and have it be counted, I would.
March 4, 2022:
Did I really wait until Friday to make an entry? Yes, yes I did. Why? I don’t know, I'm kind of stressed with everything else right now to be worried about a journal. But what can you do anyways? I plan to work on my project a lot more this month as May is approaching and I want to be almost done with it by then.
08/02/2021
Today was a pretty calm day. Nothing really worth journaling about. In terms of my capstone I asked my advisor if there are any nursing related capstones. He told me not that he knows of but he’s sure I’d find something. If I want to do something nursing related I’d probably have to come up with the idea on my own. Right now I’m thinking of an internship at a hospital but COVID might stop my plans.
08/03/2021
It’s Friday! Friday’s make me so happy I don’t know why. I’m in a very good mood today. Literally nothing can ruin it. I also got a job now so that's fun. Now my little sister wants the job I have too so I’m going to help her get it. So let's talk about capstone. I'm not really doing much yet I’m just planning in my head before I pitch. So I do have connections to the hospital. My aunt works for one and my other aunt is a boss at one so deciding where to intern wouldn’t be hard.
08/06/2021
I don’t know what it is about Mondays but they’re probably when I have the most energy and motivation. Today I walked into school ready to talk about my capstone project to Mr. Graham. Over the weekend I had thought a lot about it and I think I wanna start a program here at SMSA for aspiring nursing students like myself. The plan is to take 5 students to a hospital to shadow a nurse during her day maybe once or twice a week for about two months before I switch the group. At the end of the two months they will write me a “review” on how this experience has helped them decide if they want to go through with this field or not. When I pitched it though Mr. Graham had told me it’ll be hard especially with COVID but if it’s something I really want to do then I’ll find a way.
08/07/2021
Today I went home and really thought about my capstone Idea. I don’t know if I can pull this off. It’s a really big project. I mean transportation, times, permission from the hospital, picking students fairly. This is a lot. So I think I’m going to drop the Idea all together and see if there is anything else for me to do. Other than that life has been pretty good. Being back in school is tiring physically but it’s mentally and socially rewarding.
08/08/2021
So I stopped working on capstone for now until I figure out a project that's suitable for me. It’s not like it was too hard and I just gave up; It was just impractical. I mean with COVID-19 and hotspots being hospitals I’m not only threatening the lives of the students I take with me but as well as my own and that of the patients in the hospital. The whole point was to gain experience in the healthcare field but what kind of healthcare worker threatens the lives of people around them. Other than that work is now becoming tedious and I’m not a really big writer of feelings so these journals are kind of just adding to the stress.
08/13/2021
Today is Monday again. I have so much energy and I’m super motivated today. I haven’t journal in a few days cause there really has been nothing to journal about. Life is just moving along, Class elections are coming up soon. Senior fittings for graduation, talks about prom and the senior trip along with skip day. I am so looking forward to enjoying my senior year as well as working hard to prove myself.
08/17/2021
Friday! I feel like the days are longer on Friday’s because everyone is so excited to go home for the weekend. I think I’m going to start Journaling every Monday and Friday if nothing “journal worthy” comes up. Other than that I have figured out I really enjoy going to my 1st, 2nd, and 5th block everyday. This really motivates me to get up in the mornings. Work outside of school is getting really tiring. I’m starting to think it’s not too healthy for me to balance school and a job right now because of the hours but I like the money.
08/20/2021
Monday again. This is getting exhausting If I’m going to be honest. I forgot just how early I have to get up in order to come to school. It makes me miss online school. Nonetheless this is the last entry of this particular journal. It’s pretty hard to keep up with this as well as the rest of the things going on like my other classes. I know this works as an outlet for some students but this is really tedious for me personally.
Today I was asked about ideas for my senior capstone project. To be quite honest I have no clue what I want to do. A lot of my friends are getting started with their pitches and everything and I have nothing yet. I just know I want it to involve nursing since that's what I want to major in. Right now social wise school is pretty good. I'm very excited for what senior year is going to entail for me. Other than that there is really nothing else to write about so far.
My March in a Nutshell was pretty full of different things. First I volunteered for the Roberto Clemente Committee event which was super fun. The girls on the committee organized such a beautiful and lively event. It was definitely one of my favorite things I did this month. I also released my first teaser! My classmate Charis and I worked really hard on it and released it on the school's YouTube channel. Charis brings my ideas to life, our teamwork is truly something to see. This month I was also super busy with getting in interviews, planning out an agenda and a storyboard. March was a very and probably one of the most productive months I've had for my capstone yet. Also this Month I got to work with Ashley on the music for my video's final product and when she showed me the first draft it just made me even more excited to get this project done. I have a full schedule for April into May and I plan to get this video done by the first round of the exhibition or at least be in the final stages and putting the finishing touches on it. I plan on getting more field work hours during the month of April and May while editing. The least stressing thing about this project is knowing that my field hours are getting done while I’m working on it but I still do wanna participate in things that give back to the community. On top of that it’s more than just capstone in my life getting done. During spring break I went on a trip to DR that has come to inspire me on music I could use for my capstone project; that and I had a lot of fun. I also thought adding a little “homemade video” feel to it would bring a type of wholesomeness to it that you couldn’t get any other way. This video is going to have our hearts and souls poured into it and I can’t wait to share the final product with my classmates. I’ve been a whole lot less stressed and ready to work. This month mentally I've been in a great place really and I think that seeing people enjoy the teaser is what really made it feel worth it. I feel good and that's all I can say. I am more motivated than ever to get this project done and push it out.
February 3, 2022:
I turned 18 today! I’m also quarantined from school since my whole family has COVID except for me and my sister. Other than that we recently just missed school due to the middle school incident as well which is pretty sad. Personally this didn’t affect me much other than my thoughts of graduation being pushed back. My family also surprised me with a birthday cake :)
February 8, 2022:
I came back to school yesterday and already I feel WAY overwhelmed. I waited until late to do my Journals for my first block class so now I have to recount the months from memory. On top of this I have done my work over quarantine but I’m more than lost in my classes. I already feel like this quarter is not gonna go my way. I just barely got by during the first semester but at least I passed is what I keep telling myself. Is this enough for me? Yes. For now. Do I want to be better? Of course I do. I'm just so overwhelmed and already mentally tired from the stress.
February 14, 2022:
Coming to school on Valentines day has to be the worst thing known to mankind. I may just be a bit of a hater though. Anyways at the moment there is so much on my mind, positive and negative. For one thing my grades are starting to drop because of all my missing assignments already. For two I may have the case of senioritis. High school has always felt unnecessary to me and just in the way of me and what I really want to do with my life. It’s such a pain to feel this way. I want to enjoy the experience but I just can’t. It feels too tedious, too in the way and I’m not motivated to do any of the work given to me. I’m burning out even quicker.
February 16, 2022:
Wednesdays are always my favorite because they’re shorter. It’s nice to leave early and go home. You know ever since I came to this school I’ve never been the same. I used to be a straight A honor and AP student. It gets me thinking about what happened to me. Yes, I should probably strive to be better but I can’t. Mentally, I cannot. I cannot try to be better because mentally I’m not here. Mentally I’m not ready. I catch myself wishing I could go back sometimes. Go back to freshman year, start over again, make new choices and never come to this school. This school has destroyed my ego as a student. I’m capable of so much more yet, here I am. Stuck, lost, and defeated.
February 18, 2022:
It’s the Friday before break. I’ve never felt so relieved. I will not write in my journal over break since well it’s a break and as I do kind of use the journal as an outlet as per my last two entries. I still think this journal is tedious though, outlet or not. I never have anything to write about and this past month has had a lot of negative entries. I’m trying my best to distract myself with the positives like prom, graduating, spring break, the senior trip and socializing with my classmates. It only works for a period of time though but at this point I’m just rambling to fill up this page. If I can say blah blah blah over and over again and have it be counted, I would.
March 4, 2022:
Did I really wait until Friday to make an entry? Yes, yes I did. Why? I don’t know, I'm kind of stressed with everything else right now to be worried about a journal. But what can you do anyways? I plan to work on my project a lot more this month as May is approaching and I want to be almost done with it by then.
08/02/2021
Today was a pretty calm day. Nothing really worth journaling about. In terms of my capstone I asked my advisor if there are any nursing related capstones. He told me not that he knows of but he’s sure I’d find something. If I want to do something nursing related I’d probably have to come up with the idea on my own. Right now I’m thinking of an internship at a hospital but COVID might stop my plans.
08/03/2021
It’s Friday! Friday’s make me so happy I don’t know why. I’m in a very good mood today. Literally nothing can ruin it. I also got a job now so that's fun. Now my little sister wants the job I have too so I’m going to help her get it. So let's talk about capstone. I'm not really doing much yet I’m just planning in my head before I pitch. So I do have connections to the hospital. My aunt works for one and my other aunt is a boss at one so deciding where to intern wouldn’t be hard.
08/06/2021
I don’t know what it is about Mondays but they’re probably when I have the most energy and motivation. Today I walked into school ready to talk about my capstone project to Mr. Graham. Over the weekend I had thought a lot about it and I think I wanna start a program here at SMSA for aspiring nursing students like myself. The plan is to take 5 students to a hospital to shadow a nurse during her day maybe once or twice a week for about two months before I switch the group. At the end of the two months they will write me a “review” on how this experience has helped them decide if they want to go through with this field or not. When I pitched it though Mr. Graham had told me it’ll be hard especially with COVID but if it’s something I really want to do then I’ll find a way.
08/07/2021
Today I went home and really thought about my capstone Idea. I don’t know if I can pull this off. It’s a really big project. I mean transportation, times, permission from the hospital, picking students fairly. This is a lot. So I think I’m going to drop the Idea all together and see if there is anything else for me to do. Other than that life has been pretty good. Being back in school is tiring physically but it’s mentally and socially rewarding.
08/08/2021
So I stopped working on capstone for now until I figure out a project that's suitable for me. It’s not like it was too hard and I just gave up; It was just impractical. I mean with COVID-19 and hotspots being hospitals I’m not only threatening the lives of the students I take with me but as well as my own and that of the patients in the hospital. The whole point was to gain experience in the healthcare field but what kind of healthcare worker threatens the lives of people around them. Other than that work is now becoming tedious and I’m not a really big writer of feelings so these journals are kind of just adding to the stress.
08/13/2021
Today is Monday again. I have so much energy and I’m super motivated today. I haven’t journal in a few days cause there really has been nothing to journal about. Life is just moving along, Class elections are coming up soon. Senior fittings for graduation, talks about prom and the senior trip along with skip day. I am so looking forward to enjoying my senior year as well as working hard to prove myself.
08/17/2021
Friday! I feel like the days are longer on Friday’s because everyone is so excited to go home for the weekend. I think I’m going to start Journaling every Monday and Friday if nothing “journal worthy” comes up. Other than that I have figured out I really enjoy going to my 1st, 2nd, and 5th block everyday. This really motivates me to get up in the mornings. Work outside of school is getting really tiring. I’m starting to think it’s not too healthy for me to balance school and a job right now because of the hours but I like the money.
08/20/2021
Monday again. This is getting exhausting If I’m going to be honest. I forgot just how early I have to get up in order to come to school. It makes me miss online school. Nonetheless this is the last entry of this particular journal. It’s pretty hard to keep up with this as well as the rest of the things going on like my other classes. I know this works as an outlet for some students but this is really tedious for me personally.